"Be still, and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10 (NIV)
I think about this scripture verse more than any other. As I get older, I recognize the importance of being still. Time spent in prayer, reading the Bible and thanking God for the many blessings in my life have become immensely important to me. Time spent just "talking" to God about my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams... I really do talk to God as I would to a best friend. This time for me is usually at night when my kids are sound asleep, and I am lost in thoughts about the day.
Anyone who knows me, however, will tell you I am anything BUT 'still'. If there is a show on TV that I want to watch, I hop on the treadmill or elliptical to watch it. If the kids are upstairs playing, I am downstairs sharking (steaming) my wood floors. If Robby is out of town, he comes home to a living room completely rearranged! I can't help myself. I feel like there is so much to do and so little time to do it! I could spend lots of time trying to analyze myself (I majored in Psychology at UT), but I have decided to just find the humor in my little quirks. This one in particular.
This summer is an interesting time for me. The kids are all out of school and out of camps--they are home with me 24/7. They are no longer at an age where they take naps--they are going full speed from the moment they wake up until the second they fall asleep. It's an exhausting and exciting time of year in the Shimanek house. But before school let out this year, I made the conscious decision to stop all of my busyness and be more present in the day-to-day of my family life. You see, this upcoming fall semester will be the first time in 7 years that all 4 of my children will be at the same school full time! "What?" "When did that happen?" Listen, when you hear other parents say, "Enjoy it, the time flies by" they aren't kidding. It feels like just yesterday I heard the words, "You're having triplets!" Now they are kindergartners! And my Jaxson, well, he will be in 2nd grade! Look, I know I've got many, many more years to go, but these fun and cute years have meant so much to me--and they seem to be slipping away faster than I'd like.
So now, I find myself swimming a little more. Playing more Marco-Polo than mopping floors. Jumping on the trampoline more than hopping on my treadmill. And watching more Shrek and Kung Fu Panda than catching up with friends on Facebook. And while this may mean that the laundry isn't put away every Friday morning and my house isn't Pottery Barn Magazine-ready at all times; I find that I am more at peace. I'm closer to my kids and more thankful than ever for my family. When I was 26 years old, I prayed every day that the Lord would bless Robby and me with kids. I shed MANY tears over countless negative pregnancy tests. I hid from girlfriends that were pregnant because it made my heart hurt that I wasn't pregnant, too. Now fast forward 8 years and I can see God's hand on my entire life. His endless mercies, His countless blessings, His Love and Favor. I think I forgot a little bit about the days of praying for this life I now live. So I recommend to everyone, be present in your life, and be still and know that He is God.
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Fri, June 10, 2011
by Alex Shimanek